Manic/Nerdgasm/Toxicity

Ask me anything

im 25, living with the onset of possible manic depression.
i dont self harm, not physically anyway.

im a nerd. i have my really bad days, then i have my really not so bad days. i think my tumblr reflects that.

i live in the confines of my mind, which is is full of depression, and wonderful nerd things. i hope that maybe i can help someone with anything that i write, share, etc.

please feel free to leave me anything in my ask box. im here.

severe depression “diagnosis”

so i went to the doctor yesterday. my PCP.

other than the receptionist being an all around bitch it wasnt bad this time around.

my doctor finally listened to me about my stress and my anxiety.

and then asks me a series of questions and has me rate each one with anything from 1-3, based on how good/bad/frequent/etc something is.

after this was all said and done, and my number answers were added up, she says i have “severe depression” which i was sort of expecting.

i was given a 30 day sample pack of VIIBRYD^® (vilazodone)

a drug which my brother and i dont feel i should take unless i talk to a specialist first and get a real diagnosis from someone who will listen to me. someone who i can talk to about all the demons i have. all the voices i have screaming at me.

not just telling someone “yea i hate myself, yea i think about death and blah blah blah”

have any of you ever tried this? or been diagnosed this way?

am i wrong for feeling uncomfortable having been told i have something from someone who doesnt know whats really going on in my head.

can anyone give me some guidance here?

or am i just talking to the wall as usual?

severe depression “diagnosis”

I’m screaming and nobody hears me.

oh hello anxiety. nice to see you again. now stop trying to make my heart leap out of my chest.